Coffee.

Wow. I cannot believe it has has been twenty-three days since my last blog. Twenty-three days! It seems that those twenty-three days have come and gone in a matter of seconds. Being a senior in high school, this is undoubtedly the most stressful time I have ever experienced in my life. College acceptance, college rejection, college tours, college tuition, college scholarships. It is safe to say that the pesky word has monopolized most (if not all) aspects of my life these last few weeks.

This post will be a little "catch up" session. Like those coffee dates friends partake in when they haven't talked in a while. So what do you say? Let's grab some coffee.

Oh my, where to begin? There is so much to say! I think fist, I should apologize for my lack of posts lately. As I mentioned earlier. . .

College. 

Enough said. But really, I am deeply sorry. Having zero time to write and blog has put me on edge, as it is one of my favorite ways to clear my mind and really get a more in depth look at what my life has currently consisted of.

So what has my life consisted of lately? The answer lies in the question itself: life.

I finally feel as though I am living. I go to parties, I have a large group of friends who accept me for who I am, I can focus on my schoolwork, even food is hardly causing me anxiety anymore. I FEEL NORMAL. And let me tell you, it is the best feeling ever. Which sounds more enjoyable: Hair loss, depression, emaciation, and starving? Or sushi, dancing, hot boys, and McDonald's ice cream?

I hope you do not even need me to answer that for you.

I honestly do not even know what brought about the "click" in my brain that allowed me to see things clearly. It just happened. I wish I could provide you with a better explanation. I think it is one of those things that one will never understand until they experience it first hand. I have come to the realization that my senior year was not intended to be spent alone and despondent. This is my senior year for goodness sake! I should reminisce about these days ten years from now and long to go back once more!

In contrast to the past, there is also the future-- I am sure you can guess where this is heading at this point-- yep. You guessed it.

College.

I intend to make up for everything that I missed in high school throughout these next four years. I am going to join every club, every organization, every committee, every sport, anything that sparks my interest-- because I want to be involved. [Oh, and I will be sure to keep up with all that "academic stuff"as well. ;)]

Which leads me to my final and most significant piece of news: I KNOW WHERE I AM GOING TO COLLEGE. Yes. It's true! I am committing to Sonoma State University. On Friday, I traveled there with my mom and a friend to tour the campus and meet with a few department heads. I fell in love. No lie. I am sporting my Sonoma State sweatshirt at the very moment as I type this. I feel as though the heaviest weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I have a future!

My advice to you: Have a plan. Know what you want, and chase after it. Whether it is in recovery, schoolwork, sports, college, anything. Create goals, and construct plans to achieve them. Remember, it is not where you go, but where you end up.

Your turn:

• What one thing you currently wish to achieve?
• What is your favorite drink to get at Starbucks?